Love you Cassie beautiful. So many revelations in this piece. Have you read the Mirror Book by Charlotte Grimshaw? It was the first book that I read after a couple of years of shutting down. It is scary when you can’t do the things you used to be able to do. I still love the old me - she survived - and I can forgive her and give her a cuddle and a fucken mighty high-five!! She did alright baby! Now I can do better for her and me, and be more honest and caring to honour us. ‘Car-crying’ god how many times have we women done that? 🤦🏾♀️ and I’m not good at it. I have to stop on the side of the road where at least over the years two complete strangers have stopped to ask if I’m okay, and I’ve ended up telling them my life story and they’ve ended up telling me theirs! Hmmm - might have to write about that… I didn’t like Demi Lovato, but at one particular time a few years ago I discovered her ‘Art of starting over’ and that album, I blasted it so loud and howled my eyes out - even in the car. I love the self-worth line she wrote ‘no more melon cakes on birthdays’ word xxx arohanui e hoa
Thank you for sharing e kare! I appreciate you and your words so much. You are absolutely right that we can be grateful for the hard work they put in, the choices they made were only to try and look after us, and now we can step in, heal those wounds, and be kinder to ourselves all around.
I haven't read the Mirror Book - will have to check it out!!
I love Linkin Park & still listen to them often. They got me through some shitty times. So I'll have to look this up.
Sometimes a song catches me & I listen to it over and over on repeat. Apparently this is a normal autistic thing. The most recent one is Noah Khan's Stick Season. I don't know why! Something about the lyrics & the way he sings them. I'm not a Noah Khan fan, just this one song.
That "don't glamourise..." quote is so real. I was just thinking about that concept today, and how that person never actually existed without the cost of illness. There's a lot of grief to work through, losing the person I believed could do everything (even though she never really existed).
So much grief - I feel that hard these days. But I think in actually allowing the grieving process to run it's course, to find ourselves in and amongst that grief and piece ourselves back together? It's hard and beautiful and so worthwhile. You're a gem! And even in the dark times I see the shine inside you my friend x
Love you Cassie beautiful. So many revelations in this piece. Have you read the Mirror Book by Charlotte Grimshaw? It was the first book that I read after a couple of years of shutting down. It is scary when you can’t do the things you used to be able to do. I still love the old me - she survived - and I can forgive her and give her a cuddle and a fucken mighty high-five!! She did alright baby! Now I can do better for her and me, and be more honest and caring to honour us. ‘Car-crying’ god how many times have we women done that? 🤦🏾♀️ and I’m not good at it. I have to stop on the side of the road where at least over the years two complete strangers have stopped to ask if I’m okay, and I’ve ended up telling them my life story and they’ve ended up telling me theirs! Hmmm - might have to write about that… I didn’t like Demi Lovato, but at one particular time a few years ago I discovered her ‘Art of starting over’ and that album, I blasted it so loud and howled my eyes out - even in the car. I love the self-worth line she wrote ‘no more melon cakes on birthdays’ word xxx arohanui e hoa
Thank you for sharing e kare! I appreciate you and your words so much. You are absolutely right that we can be grateful for the hard work they put in, the choices they made were only to try and look after us, and now we can step in, heal those wounds, and be kinder to ourselves all around.
I haven't read the Mirror Book - will have to check it out!!
I love Linkin Park & still listen to them often. They got me through some shitty times. So I'll have to look this up.
Sometimes a song catches me & I listen to it over and over on repeat. Apparently this is a normal autistic thing. The most recent one is Noah Khan's Stick Season. I don't know why! Something about the lyrics & the way he sings them. I'm not a Noah Khan fan, just this one song.
That "don't glamourise..." quote is so real. I was just thinking about that concept today, and how that person never actually existed without the cost of illness. There's a lot of grief to work through, losing the person I believed could do everything (even though she never really existed).
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So much grief - I feel that hard these days. But I think in actually allowing the grieving process to run it's course, to find ourselves in and amongst that grief and piece ourselves back together? It's hard and beautiful and so worthwhile. You're a gem! And even in the dark times I see the shine inside you my friend x