The weird thing about where you're at is that if something bad happens, you'll attach it to "bad things always happen." Something to be mindful of is that bad things can happen that are separate to other bad things 🤣 and bad things will always happen. Getting through this period is going to be quite exciting, but it'll feel bizarre 🤣
I remember the first time I was dealing with depression - any time my mood slumped I'd freak out that I was getting depressed again, but bad things happen, sad things happen, they are all part of life.
💯% - the goal isn't to never be sad (I believe it's a necessary contrast for joy), but to be balanced and mostly in the vibing range rather than my-life-is-over range.
The inevitable result of relief from long term pressure is ....collapse! LOL Lean into it. Don't go hunting for "something I have to fix" just lean in and let that amazing mind unravel itself little by little as it keeps adjusting to this new landscape which has potential for spaciousness and creativity. It's a transition and they bring the unexpected which you're noticing. Don't hold onto it, note it and let is pass, it's a transition. XXXXXX
You're not wrong. I have lived with PTSD for most of my adult life (since 1991) and I'm still waiting for the other shoe...or ocean liner...or space ship...to drop. I was in therapy for more than 6 years, and worked out my coping mechanisms so I could get off the antidepressants (which created other problems, since I'm allergic to most of the manufactured drugs on the planet). I found out that, for me, an act of creation seems to cancel out the self-destructive crap in my brain; so I knit, sew, crochet, write the occasional poem, draw/doodle, and work as a care giver on the night shift. My social interactions are minimal. I don't own a vehicle, so I walk or take the bus everywhere...and basically avoid the universe in case it wants to dump another load of crap on me. It sucks, and at 65 I don't have the energy to do anything more to fix it. Do what you need to do to heal, and know you aren't the only one with these issues....I will keep you in my thoughts and meditations.
I'll keep you in my thoughts as well <3 Thank you for sharing with me! It's so rough. I find walking is helpful, though it's been less so lately. I really need to get myself to the beach because the sea will do it every time.
Oh friend, I feel for you. It is really uncomfortable for sure. All you can do is ride each wave of emotion and integrate it into the whole. Deep breaths, process, and be patient with yourself. And thank you for your raw honesty about how that state feels. You spoke for a lot of us.
The weird thing about where you're at is that if something bad happens, you'll attach it to "bad things always happen." Something to be mindful of is that bad things can happen that are separate to other bad things 🤣 and bad things will always happen. Getting through this period is going to be quite exciting, but it'll feel bizarre 🤣
I remember the first time I was dealing with depression - any time my mood slumped I'd freak out that I was getting depressed again, but bad things happen, sad things happen, they are all part of life.
💯% - the goal isn't to never be sad (I believe it's a necessary contrast for joy), but to be balanced and mostly in the vibing range rather than my-life-is-over range.
The inevitable result of relief from long term pressure is ....collapse! LOL Lean into it. Don't go hunting for "something I have to fix" just lean in and let that amazing mind unravel itself little by little as it keeps adjusting to this new landscape which has potential for spaciousness and creativity. It's a transition and they bring the unexpected which you're noticing. Don't hold onto it, note it and let is pass, it's a transition. XXXXXX
It's a shift, but when you finally start to feel steady again, it's going to feel SO damned good.
I really hope so! Thank you. Part of me is sure I will feel steady again, and the other part is still waiting for things to go to chaos.
You're not wrong. I have lived with PTSD for most of my adult life (since 1991) and I'm still waiting for the other shoe...or ocean liner...or space ship...to drop. I was in therapy for more than 6 years, and worked out my coping mechanisms so I could get off the antidepressants (which created other problems, since I'm allergic to most of the manufactured drugs on the planet). I found out that, for me, an act of creation seems to cancel out the self-destructive crap in my brain; so I knit, sew, crochet, write the occasional poem, draw/doodle, and work as a care giver on the night shift. My social interactions are minimal. I don't own a vehicle, so I walk or take the bus everywhere...and basically avoid the universe in case it wants to dump another load of crap on me. It sucks, and at 65 I don't have the energy to do anything more to fix it. Do what you need to do to heal, and know you aren't the only one with these issues....I will keep you in my thoughts and meditations.
I'll keep you in my thoughts as well <3 Thank you for sharing with me! It's so rough. I find walking is helpful, though it's been less so lately. I really need to get myself to the beach because the sea will do it every time.
I understand this feeling so much.
When your nervous system is used to dealing with high levels of stress, when things are calm and "normal", it feels like dangerous.
I don't even think I would know how to lean into peace and calm, should it ever be a part of my experience of life.
Oh friend, I feel for you. It is really uncomfortable for sure. All you can do is ride each wave of emotion and integrate it into the whole. Deep breaths, process, and be patient with yourself. And thank you for your raw honesty about how that state feels. You spoke for a lot of us.